Recently, when
people ask about the adoption update I answer with a canned statement, “just
waiting to pass court in the Congo”, but that is not really a full answer or
even a good answer. I am not “just
waiting”. I am learning lessons
from the Lord while I learn to wait well in Him.
I realized at
the beginning of this adoption that the waiting, the still part that would seem
like stagnant water, would be the most important part of this adoption
process. The Lord showed me early
on that this “waiting” period would be the period of formation, stretching and
growth. Having been through two
pregnancies I remember the feeling of wanting to jump to the end, to just “have
the baby already”. 9 months seems
long when you are waiting on that baby, especially month 9. But, it is in those months that
formation, stretching and growth occur, that life is formed and birthed within
your womb. It is the same process
now, it just looks a little bit different. I may not be carrying this baby in my womb,
but I know this waiting is bringing forth life from the womb of my spirit.
The Lord asked
me to learn how to wait. How to
sit in silence and find Him there.
He told me to relish in this long waiting, this time that stretches
without knowledge of it’s ending.
This waiting is just as important as the getting. In this wait I find the gift. The
gift of growth that comes with living life with the Lord instead of against
Him.
The gift is
endless in lessons of Trust, Patience, Stillness, Resting, Praying, Counting it
all Joy, Confessing and Silence.
To enter into this waiting period with the Lord is to understand that
every part of this life is good. I
do not need to expect the fruit from the tree the moment I plant the seed in
the ground. I will take joy in the
growth process, to see life sprout from the seed and the beauty that is in the
seasons before it yields true fruit.
To appreciate the time I have been given and to see it’s beauty. To not rush and push at the doors of
heaven, but to rest in this plan.
The gift or fruit of waiting is to live this life with the Lord, not
against Him, and for that I am truly thankful to wait.
"Whoever
keeps a fig-tree will have its fruit; and the servant waiting on his master
will be honored." Proverbs 27:18
